Two in the morning and I'm sitting here still wondering.  Why am I focused on a career that abuses me, rarely appreciates the hard work and long hours.  Why am I not focused on something that I love.  I enjoy being a nurse to most of my patients.  I just want to be home with my kids. I haven't seen my almost freshman since Wednesday and won't see her again until Tuesday.  I  said goodbye to my youngest and won't see him again until Tuesday.  I'm not sure it's worth it anymore.  I keep asking for a sign that I should pursue avon more fully.